Blessings!

As usual, I am trying to improve my life by improving myself. I want to focus more on counting my blessing, then on looking at the things that go wrong! I have been thinking a lot lately about all those people who have been dealt impossible cards and yet their faith in God gets them through. I often wonder how I would do in those situations and I don't believe I could handle it!
I have recently read two stories about sick babies. One family lost their 10 month old daughter to cancer and another family is struggling to keep their 10 month old daughter alive being born 12 weeks early and never having been home yet! Kayleigh is losing her battle! I look at my three beautiful and healthy kids and I feel horrible that I take it for granted! I want to make the most of every day that I have with them and not have any regrets!! I believe in God but think that it's time to make him a bigger part of my life, and the lives of my children! I'm not sure how I am going to go about that because I have never been a regular church attendant. It wasn't stressed when I was a child and I haven't made it a part of my life as an adult. The last time I was in a church was my grandmothers funeral over three years ago!
There is a church up the road that I am seriously considering attending. I am planning on talking to my mom about helping me take the kids this Sunday. The kids have appropriate clothes to wear but I'm not sure that I can fit into any of the clothes that I own that are appropriate. Anyway, the point to this is that I am going to try and use this blog to count my blessing and celebrate them!

BLESSINGS!!

I have three healthy children!
I have a husband that loves me!
I have a mother willing to help me all the time!
My family loves my kids and would do anything for them!
I have a nice roof over my head!
I have transportation for myself and my kids!
Riley's speech is improving!
Kaitlyn is gaining weight nicely!
My kids have more then what they need!

Last night!

Well I survived last night, which at the time I just wasn't sure! I still have concerns but no way to know for sure if I have lost my mind or not anyway so I am trying not to think about it!

More news of the weird, my MIL told me that she has been diagnosed with MS. I am hesitant to believe her because she has a tendency to exaggerate things, but it would explain some things if it were true! She will ask you the same question three times in a five minute phone call and honestly not remember the answer. And it has been getting worse. But we shall see. Well sleep deprivation from last nights events has worn me out and I need to sleep while my youngest is asleep! Haha, she will probably be up within the hour!

Wow!

I can't believe that it has been over a year since I have been on here! I have gotten moved, gotten pregnant and had a baby since I was last on here. I know why I stopped writing here, because things were pretty good at home and I didn't need that outlet and when I did need it I didn't thinking that posting it here was really appropriate. Now, I really have no where else to go. I feel bad burdening my friends with hormonal overreactions caused by having a baby and realizing this really will be my last barring a miracle. Knowing that this is really a good thing because of financal and sanity reasons doesn't stop me from being a little sad about it. It also made me realize some things that might have been better hiden from view!

ARGHHH!!

Being sick sucks!! I lost my voice...and it was awful!! I am very lucky that Riley decided to behave and I didn't need to yell taht much becasue I couldn't!! lol Both kids were remarkably well behaved for the two worst days and I am so thankful for that. I feel better today and am on the mend. Hopefully the kids stay well and this will pass. I did a ton of cleaning yesterday trying to get rid of the traces of nastiness...lol!! Hopefully that will be enough.

Sorry I was MIA!!

Things have been crazy around here and what I ahve had to say hasn't been all that pleasent so I have stayed away. Not to mention the fact that my dear hubby took away my bookmarks and I couldn't find my way back...lol...thanks Kristin!!! Without you I wouldn't be here...lol!!! I'm not sure that I really have anything to say that interests anyone anyway. Well Christ mas went better than could be expected. THe kids made out like bandits. New Years was...well, another night except a ton of people were having fun on tv!!! Oh and I am sick!! Yay. That's just great. Well I will try to get more tomorrow!!

Cassidy is a

Kangaroo. She loves her bouncy seat and will no longer go into the stationary walker. SHe just wants to bounce. Even when she isn't in the bouncy seat her legs are constantly hopping!! If you stand her up she will try to hopp with you holding her. It is hilarious!!! Well funny, until you get tired of boucing and she still won't go to sleep. lol!! Oh well, I have no idea what she is going to do when she grows out of it...lol!

Constantly improving...NOT!!

The past few days have not been good for me personally. I just can't seem to get in a good mood and the slightest thing annoys me which when you have a 2 yr old and a six month old that won't nap...UGH is all I can say!!! I think that I am just going to try and survive the remainder of this year and make the most of next year. Oh and an update on my game is they have sent me these directions on what to do and I was worried that I would mess up my computer by doing it. Well today I decided to hell with it because I really want to fix it and alas, they tell me to do something that can't be done on my computer. They are telling me to look somewhere that doesn't exist. This is really about to make me cry, becasue I really just want to play my game and I don't think that that is to much to ask for.